This Past Week

well, this past week was interesting, depressing and made me happy
(not necessarily in that order though)
i felt like this past week has brought me closer to a certain person that i really care about ("G"), but at the same time made me alittle depressed
i had the opportunity of texting "G" on tuesday, which made me happy, but it also brought me down
for those who know who "G" is, and know my situation know the reason why
although our conversation was okay, it wasn't exactly what i wanted it to be like
"G" and i had another text conversation on thursday, but it wasn't really anything special, so that also brought me down again
i feel like it is truly time for me to hand this situation over to God, but this is a challenge for me
although i try to give God all of the control, i feel like my controlling nature is getting in the way of that

now, about today...
i saw "G" today and it made me happy and alittle nervous
whenever i see him,i get surprised (like that pushed back type of feeling) and i smile inside
before, it used to be way worse, but only the people that were around me at that time saw what that was like (by the way...it wasn't pretty ***no bueno***)
when he left today, i tried not to think about it, so i went to practice the drums (yay to practice! = ) )


P.S. God please help me = (


i can't wait to see what tomorrow has in store for me
so...until next time
                                                                                                                              ~Jalysa<3~